I have a few little updates for you. Referrals came out and they did 13 days this time!At the rate things have been going that is exciting. If they start doing a month at a time now we will be getting our in March. All we can do is hope. Or Think positive- maybe they will start doing two months at a time!! Besides that nothing new on the adoption front. We have a new a new addition to our family. His name is Sam. I am so in love with Sam. Sam is a rat. I got him for Ivy, but I have to say I am the one who quite attatched. Quit saying EWWWW!! He's not at all. Get the picture of a sewer rat out of your mind!!! He is a fancy rat. He's furry, and cute as can be. He does have that long tail though. Maybe a bow or something will help? I'll get a picture of him up soon. I'm thinking the reason I'm so attatched to this little guy is my need for another child, until Addy gets here Sam will work. Which brings me to another issue. This may be more than you want to here, My Dr. Thinks I may have uterine polyps. I have to have some special ultrasound the end of July. My female parts are doing me no good whatsoever. I don't even want them, what a waste. Happy Fourth of July to all!!!!

Thank You Secret Pal

I get home from work today and there was a present waiting! It was my secret pal gift for June! I couldn't believe my DH didn't open it(it was for him anyway). He said he knows how excited I get and wanted me to open it! How sweet!! I do get really excited. I can't believe how much this secret pal thing helps with the wait.Anyway- I'll fight anyone who thinks they have a better secret pal. I don't think it's possible. Following the June theme Andy got Spongebob golfballs, tees,and golf glasses. We got a book, and Andy also got a frame that is beautiful and says"Daddys girls" on it. Secret pal also took a picture off my blog to put in it! It was so thoughtful, and is so appreciated. Secret pal- Did you make the frame? Thanks again- Andy, Tina, Ivy, and Addy I haven't Addys name like that before! Cool huh!

I'm so goofy about all this stuff. One day I'm whining about the long wait to referral and the next I'm freaking out that March will be here before I know it and I have SO much to do! Oh well. Ivy started Day Camp today. She had a great time. The best part for her was there was another little girl named Ivy. She said "I thought I was the only one" She was really excited. Honestly when I named her I wanted something a little different. I didn't want her to have to go by Ivy K. But- she wants to be like everyone else. Which is fine. But as she gets older hope she can appreciate that different is ok. She said there was also a little girl named Addy. Ivy told the little girl that her baby sister who lives in China, name is also Addy. I'm sure the girl was wondering why her sister lives in China. LOL Rumors have started flying about the next batch of referrals. Hopefully they a match a whole months worth! I'll keep you updated.

This is a vent post. So be prepared- I'm not sure where it will go. I am so frustrated this minute about what I am going to call the unfairness in the world. Yes- I know life isn't fair, but that's not my point. Why do things have to be so difficult? I want my child home w/ me. I am more than ready. Everything I read is so depressing. Could be a year to referral, could be 14-16 months, could be 2 years!UGH- I just wish I knew. When we started it was six months!!! At this rate I will be sixty before I have my second child. I think it's me, or possibly Andy. Every obstacle that could get in our way has. I will do anything to make this happen. But- is that enough? If the wait gets to long we have to redo most of our paperwork. That was frustrating enough the first time. Money- it will costs at least another $2000. Have we not paid enough already? Guess not. I want more children to, but at this rate, I'm not going to have the time or the money. It's not like I can have one. Which brings me something else. My sister, wants a baby so bad. She's had three miscarriages. It doesn't look like adoption is even an option for her(because of some things in her DH past)Her Dr. is ready to do some genetic testing now to figure out what is going on, but she has no health insurance. All of that stuff is not cheap! Oh ya- another baby found in a dumpster today! Now tell me is life fair? Not at all. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of anything having to do with babies!!! I think I'm done for now. I feel a little better.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

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Lets see what this coming week brings. It's been a year since baby Luke. He was born on the 3, came home w/ us on the 5 and left on the 8th. It was so hard. I hope he is doing well. He will always have a place in my heart. The first month he was gone was complete torture. It's amazing how you can love someone so much that you don't know. I did get to know him just a little, but I'm not usually devastated over someone who leaves after 3 days! I still think about him a lot. Wonder what he's doing, how big he is, does he walk?What makes him laugh? I just hope he is happy, and having a great life! So- Happy Birthday Luke!!! All of this helped lead us to Addy. Life tends to work in funny ways. Things always seem to work out the way they're supposed to.I can't get this picture of Ivy off- so it's a bonus!