This is a vent post. So be prepared- I'm not sure where it will go. I am so frustrated this minute about what I am going to call the unfairness in the world. Yes- I know life isn't fair, but that's not my point. Why do things have to be so difficult? I want my child home w/ me. I am more than ready. Everything I read is so depressing. Could be a year to referral, could be 14-16 months, could be 2 years!UGH- I just wish I knew. When we started it was six months!!! At this rate I will be sixty before I have my second child. I think it's me, or possibly Andy. Every obstacle that could get in our way has. I will do anything to make this happen. But- is that enough? If the wait gets to long we have to redo most of our paperwork. That was frustrating enough the first time. Money- it will costs at least another $2000. Have we not paid enough already? Guess not. I want more children to, but at this rate, I'm not going to have the time or the money. It's not like I can have one. Which brings me something else. My sister, wants a baby so bad. She's had three miscarriages. It doesn't look like adoption is even an option for her(because of some things in her DH past)Her Dr. is ready to do some genetic testing now to figure out what is going on, but she has no health insurance. All of that stuff is not cheap! Oh ya- another baby found in a dumpster today! Now tell me is life fair? Not at all. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of anything having to do with babies!!! I think I'm done for now. I feel a little better.